Dear Maverick Moonminer,

No I was not offended by your site, I was however saddened. I am sorry that you would look at the world in such a negative manner. But I also understand that. If you read my testimony then you know that I too thought that the world was a horrible place. All I ever saw was the bad part.

The world is still an evil place, but I now see light where there was only darkness before.

Don't let hate eat your insides out. You asked me if I ever thought God had abandoned me. No. I know that He did not. It may have seemed like He did but it was me not Him that had changed. He stays the same always. Did He stand by my side and hold my hand while I went about my business doing anything and everything I wanted to? No, again, but He was still the same, all I had to do was move back towards Him.

Let me tell you something else if God had abandoned you, I would not be writing you this message. Do you think it was just chance that I ended up on your site?

Look at Manson's official site. They linked to my site. Does that upset me? NO! I love it. Not only did they link to my site but they linked to the one page that has the most Scripture on it! Do you think that was chance? I don't, if I had wanted to reach those people I would not have been able to, but God sent them to me.

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us" Romans 5:8

I will continue to pray for you. God loves you no matter what is in your past. Just give Him a chance.

Take care and good luck finding what it is that you are looking for. If you ever want to talk or need help feel free to e-mail me.

Ralph Dettwiler