/Users/andrea/_magisterarbeit/korpus/clean/trainkorpus/34/file_203b.html NN ----------------------------------------- : Welcome UH to TO our PP$ Letters NP Archive NP . SENT Here RB is VBZ some DT of IN the DT mail NN we PP received VVD in IN 1999 CD . SENT 2 CD 04 CD 99 CD RESPONSE NN TO TO ONE CD SIDED VVD I PP was VBD a DT victim NN of IN an DT abusive JJ husband NN for IN 11 CD years NNS . SENT He PP was VBD verbally RB abusive JJ , , emotionally RB abusive JJ , , and CC finally RB physically RB abusive JJ . SENT I PP won't VVD go VV into IN details NNS , , but CC I PP assure VV you PP that IN although IN I PP had VHD no DT obvious JJ bruises NNS or CC broken JJ bones NNS , , I PP had VHD internal JJ injuries NNS and CC a DT broken JJ spirit NN . SENT I PP might MD add VV that IN my PP$ ex JJ husband NN was VBD schooled VVN by IN the DT Jesuits NNS , , the DT same JJ as IN Clinton NP , , and CC as IN Clinton NP , , he PP had VHD his PP$ course NN set VVD for IN him PP . SENT I PP had VHD 5 CD pregnancies NNS in IN 3 CD years NNS , , 3 CD C NP Sections NNS and CC 2 CD miscarriages NNS . SENT I PP nearly RB died VVD with IN all DT three CD births NNS and CC was VBD in IN the DT hospital NN for IN 10 CD days NNS with IN all DT three CD . SENT I PP walked VVD out RP of IN the DT hospital NN weighing VVG 91 CD lbs NNS . SENT after IN each DT birth NN Graves NP Disease NP . SENT My PP$ children NNS were VBD my PP$ life NN , , I PP would MD have VH gladly RB given VVN my PP$ life NN for IN each DT one NN , , my PP$ last JJ I NN had VHD an DT emergency NN hysterectomy NN , , at IN the DT age NN of IN 25 CD , , I PP could MD have VH no DT more JJR children NNS . SENT I PP knew VVD of IN my PP$ ex JJ husband's NN infidelities NNS and CC ignored VVD them PP . SENT I PP didn't VVD believe VV in IN divorce NN , , that WDT is VBZ until IN he PP tried VVD to TO kill VV me PP . SENT I PP suffered VVD 18 CD mos NNS . SENT of IN private JJ investigators NNS following VVG me PP . SENT I PP had VHD my PP$ phone NN tapped VVD , , an DT intruder NN came VVD into IN my PP$ apt JJ . SENT and CC was VBD chased VVD away RB by IN a DT neighbor NN I PP understood VVD there EX was VBD a DT contract NN out RP for IN me PP . SENT My PP$ ex JJ was VBD seeing VVG two CD women NNS , , each DT from IN a DT different JJ state NN , , but CC lied VVD under IN oath NN guess VVP he PP thought VVD seeing VVG meant VVN something NN else RB . SENT The DT only JJ way NN he PP could MD hurt VV me PP was VBD to TO take VV my PP$ children NNS away RB from IN me PP . SENT Our PP$ divorce NN was VBD a DT test NN case NN for IN men NNS to TO gain VV custody NN without IN justifiable JJ reason NN , , for IN our PP$ state NN . SENT This DT was VBD in IN the DT late JJ 70 CD s NN to TO early RB 80 CD s PP . SENT Our PP$ case NN was VBD closed VVN door NN to TO the DT public NN , , but CC all PDT the DT judges NNS lawyers NNS attended VVD the DT hearings NNS . SENT I PP was VBD laughed VVN at IN for IN my PP$ accusations NNS of IN abuse NN , , yet RB my PP$ ex JJ was VBD viewed VVN as IN a DT saint NN . SENT During IN these DT 18 CD mos NNS . SENT my PP$ ex JJ often RB would MD go VV 3 CD mos NNS . SENT without IN paying VVG child NN support NN , , I PP had VHD to TO pay VV to TO go VV to TO court NN , , to TO have VH his PP$ lawyer NN show VV up RP at IN my PP$ lawyers NNS the DT day NN of IN court NN with IN a DT check NN . SENT It PP always RB bounced VVD after IN the DT judge NN declared VVD it PP a DT dismissed VVN case NN , , yet CC I PP still RB had VHD to TO pay VV court NN costs NNS . SENT Meanwhile RB , , he PP was VBD giving VVG all PDT our PP$ lawn NN equipment NN to TO his PP$ girlfriend NN and CC bought VVD her PP$ children NNS eye NN glasses NNS . SENT Many JJ times NNS I PP would MD sit VV in IN the DT middle NN of IN my PP$ kitchen NN floor NN , , crying VVG and CC wondering VVG how WRB I PP was VBD going VVG to TO buy VV enough JJ food NN or CC give VV my PP$ children NNS money NN for IN their PP$ lunch NN , , so RB they PP wouldn't VVD have VH to TO stand VV in IN the DT special JJ line NN for IN the DT free JJ lunches NNS . SENT At IN the DT end NN , , I PP agreed VVD to TO do VV the DT child NN custody NN divorce NN which WDT I PP refused VVD to TO file VV for IN all DT in IN one CD . SENT I PP lost VVD custody NN of IN my PP$ children NNS on IN the DT grounds NNS that IN I PP was VBD an DT over RB protective JJ mother NN . SENT It PP took VVD me PP 7 CD years NNS when WRB I PP got VVD saved VVN to TO finally RB be VB able JJ to TO forgive VV my PP$ ex FW for IN all PDT the DT pain NN that IN he PP caused VVD me PP . SENT I PP waited VVD 17 CD years NNS before IN I PP remarried VVD . SENT My PP$ grown VVN children NNS still RB carry VVP the DT scars NNS of IN being VBG torn VVN away RB from IN their PP$ mother NN , , and CC I PP am VBP feeling VVG the DT pain NN all RB over IN again RB , , for IN them PP . SENT After IN my PP$ ex JJ took VVD my PP$ children NNS , , I PP was VBD given VVN a DT liberal JJ visitation NN my PP$ ex JJ married JJ one NN of IN his PP$ girlfriends NNS and CC she PP wanted VVD the DT children NNS gone VVN as IN much RB as RB possible JJ , , but CC they PP both CC used VVD the DT children NNS as IN a DT pon NP to TO control VV me PP . SENT I PP still RB would MD give VV my PP$ life NN for IN any DT of IN my PP$ children NNS . SENT In IN all PDT this DT , , I PP prayed VVD to TO my PP$ Father NP , , Why WRB , , why WRB O NP Lord NP , , why WRB did VVD I PP lose VV my PP$ children NNS . SENT I PP was VBD saved VVN for IN two CD years NNS when WRB the DT Lord NP spoke VVD to TO me PP . SENT It PP was VBD an DT audible JJ voice NN , , I PP fell VVD on IN my PP$ knees NNS , , crying VVG , , as IN the DT very JJ presence NN of IN Jesus NP was VBD too RB much JJ to TO bare JJ . SENT The DT voice NN said VVD , , Do VVP you PP remember VV how WRB much JJ pain NN you PP felt VVD when WRB your PP$ children NNS left VVD you PP . SENT I PP wanted VVD to TO die VV , , I PP cried VVD from IN the DT depth NN of IN my PP$ soul NN , , Yes UH , , I PP answered VVD . SENT I PP hurt VVD 100 CD times NNS more RBR when WRB my PP$ children NNS leave VVP me PP , , He PP said VVD . SENT Do VV you PP remember VV how WRB much JJ you PP hurt VVP when WRB your PP$ children NNS blamed VVD you PP and CC it PP wasn't VVD your PP$ fault NN . SENT Yes UH , , I PP answered VVD . SENT I PP hurt VVD 100 CD times NNS more RBR when WRB my PP$ children NNS blame VVP me PP and CC it PP is VBZ not RB my PP$ fault NN . 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SENT Fathers NNS should MD pay VV for IN child NN support NN , , but CC if IN they PP don't NN , , that WDT will MD be VB dealt VVN with IN by IN the DT Lord NP , , in IN His PP$ time NN . SENT The DT government NN should MD stay VV out RP of IN the DT family NN affairs NNS as RB much RB as RB possible JJ . SENT I PP have VHP known VVN women NNS that WDT had VHD babies NNS out RP of IN wedlock NN , , they PP worked VVD as IN hookers NNS or CC in IN bars NNS . SENT These DT women NNS were VBD not RB the DT class NN of IN mothers NNS that IN one PP would MD expect VV to TO be VB raising VVG children NNS . SENT Yet RB , , of IN the DT three CD that WDT I PP know VVP of IN personally RB one CD was VBD my PP$ childhood NN friend NN , , their PP$ children NNS grew VVD up RP to TO be VB respectable JJ adults NNS , , good JJ grades NNS , , college NN scholarships NNS , , etc FW . SENT I PP would MD not RB have VH raised VVN my PP$ children NNS the DT same JJ way NN , , yet RB for IN whatever WDT reason NN , , these DT children NNS came VVD out RB normal JJ . SENT I PP too RB was VBD a DT bit NN confused VVN by IN the DT articles NNS , , but CC the DT links NNS will MD take VV you PP to TO several JJ sites NNS , , including VVG sites NNS opposed VVN to TO Fathers NNS taking VVG custody NN of IN their PP$ children NNS . SENT The DT Lord NP will MD not RB always RB do VVP as IN we PP ask VVP or CC want VVP , , because IN we PP are VBP to TO ask VV that IN His PP$ Will MD be VB done VVN . SENT His PP$ Will NP may MD not RB be VB ours JJ . SENT The DT government NN , , however RB , , should MD stay VV away RB from IN trying VVG to TO become VV God NP . SENT I PP do VVP hope NN that WDT was VBD the DT purpose NN of IN the DT article NN on IN fathers NNS that WDT pay VVP no DT support NN . SENT Cyndi NP Editors NNS Response NP . SENT It PP was VBD . SENT